Archive | August, 2017

Graylife 01 Surviving life

30 Aug

I consider myself a survivor Many people don’t know what I’ve had to get through to still be here today. I was born with transient IGA deficiency. Immuno Gobulean A (IGa) is part of bodies immune response to fight off infections. The other common ones are IGe , IGgand IGm IGd
IGa is mainly involved with the mucus membranes, it protects it form b=getting infections.

I was Ok for the first year of my Life probably because I was breast fed and getting my mothers Immunity.  Once that wore off I became very sick and nearly died. To solve the problem I was put on continueas courses of antibiotics. Still i would sometimes get sick mainly bronchitis. This lasted off and on till I was four

Sometimes I wish that I hadn’t been born in this modern age of antibiotics in the old days I probably would have died, Then I would have been spared the suffering that I’ve had to go through in the rest of my life and since I would have died as a child I would have gone strait to heaven to be at Gods side.

But then I’m also glad that I live at this time I think of all the great advancements that have happened just in my life time and I’m grateful to have been able to experience then and see were the world is going.

The scriptures call the last days the great and dreadful day of the lord I think that’s because it will be great for some and dreadful for others.

I wont go on for now but suffice to say that if transient IGa had been all that went wrong medically i would have been ok with it but it was just  the start of a long life with all to frequent medical diagnoses for different Illnesses.


Giving yourself outs. 

17 Aug

On the radio today I heard a guy talking about why he couldnt give up smoking. He said that he had tried many times but just didn’t have the will power.  It got me thinking he was giving himself an out for failing. 

In some ways we all do this. I didnt get that job for xyz reasons. They are just outs obsuring us from the real reason why a certain thing didnt happen that we dont want to face up to. So that when we fail we can blame the out. 

I was thinking that in a lot of ways disabilty can be used as an out. Sure with diabilty it can be a legitimate out for not doing something.  I havr no legs so i cant climb a ladder. Is a legitimate out. 

I do it my self some times i use my disability as an out for not doing rhings thar i know im perfectly capable of doing but dont feel like it that day or a more common thing for me is that im too afraid. So I use my didiabilty as an out.  

It really annoys me when perfectly capable people use outs for no good reason. Im sure they think its a good reason. The guy on the radio and his lacking will power reason. Its an out for failing before you have even failed. 

I dont really know how to word what I’m thinking.  To me its a predermined outcome in one of two ways if you try and then fail the out is there to mask why u really failed

Or the out can stop u from teying anything that you know your going to fail at. So a person would only end up doing things they are good at or if they feel like they are good at nothing they’lljust sit around and turn into a blob. 

Instead of having outs we should acknowledge our strengths and weakness. I come from a long line of short people so i acknowledge that basketball isnt something that is going to come easy to me. If i want to be a basketballer then I’ll have to acknowledge that weakness. If i wanted to play basketball i could use my families short stature as an out. Insteas i could focus on my small size being an advantage . 

Its all in how we see life. Do we use outs to avoid living life and pushing ourselves . Instead we can get rid of outs and rise to the challenge.  

Life isnt always Black and White

5 Aug

There is a new platform called Steemit. that I though I would start to post on so that I would be able to have a bigger social media presence.

Its always hard to find a way to introduce my self. I’m such a complex person who has had a lot of experiences in life. Which if I said one thing might prejudice some people but if I said something else it might prejudice others against me.

I feel that in today’s society we are gravitating to the extremes of left and right. Its why I called my channel graymatters for two reasons it a play on my name and also because the center the gray area between the two extremes matters.

I started life as a Mormon. I sort of got board of that in the late 1990’s.I still kept going hoping things would get better. I also dont like to ditch things that I have put a lot of time and effort into . I am an optimistic person so I stick with it hoping that things will eventually get better. I have had to many experiences to ditch Mormonism.
I have a gift that I will not go into at this time. while researching how to control this gift I got involved with Gnosticism. But when I heard that the leader was getting his info from a demon I dropped that but kept exploring on my own. They taught that on;y one person at a time could be on the road to enlightenment. The leader was given this info by a demon he was quite open that he was a demon but he told the leader that he’d decide to renounce Satan and follow God. but a lot of what they taught was contrary to the gospel.

I found that the experiences that I had made the gospel be more alive and more real. I know that there is a spirit world. I have been there. I also know that demons and the adversary are real I have battled with some of them.

I want to hedge my bets so I still consider myself an Atypical Mormon. I go to church most weeks. I am slightly left of center. I believe that both sides of the political spectrum have some useful attributes that I can incorporate into my life. My experiences give me a unique outlook on life. I feel that I have a story to tell that some others might be interested in.

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