At the end of last year i had a nervous breakdown due to not being able to cope with a full time teaching load.I quit my contract that I had as a result.
Three months later i had learned some coping strategies. Also I feel that the introduction of the Australian curriculum would enable me to cope better as most of the work is already done. I would need to exhaust my self preparing for each lesson. I could focus on the actual delivery of the lesson instead of the preparation.
I had applied for a couple of contracts that looked promising.
Then 6 weeks ago I was putting the baby to sleep and rolled over and was in agonizing pain. I had to go to hospital as i couldn’t move. The paramedics gave me some morphine and I was able to move.
Before this happened i was having some hope for the future. I was finally in a position where I could support my family and be the type of father that I always thought i should be. that I could get off the dole and finally into full time work.
The boom! the back thing happens and I’m back were i was before, actually its worse than before as I find it difficult to do the things i used to love before, like dancing with my children, or doing the gardening, or finishing my house.
I look at others and they don’t seem to have the same problems that I have.They can support their families, ect.
Before this happened i thought that I had turned a corner and things were looking up. what am i supposed to do with my life. what am i supposed to learn from this. what lesson is God trying to get me to learn.